I wish you guys could automatically understand the ins and outs of our relationship and tell me what to do. I am getting tired of this. Really. But I love him and that makes this really difficult because if I leave I’ll come crawling back after a week because we’ll miss each other. Basically, I need to decide leaving him is what’s right and believe it 100% and then fight the emotional battle I’m going to face. But right now I don’t know if it’s right so I don’t want to face it.